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aack. [ 05.27.06 - 2:30am] [ mood | restless ] im soooooooooooooooooooo freaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkiiiin BORED. feeling ko nagddeteriorate na ung utak ko! hahaha. parang lahat ng natutunan ko for 20 years eh nawwala na! aaaacck!! what's happening. i can go blank for about an hour and just stare on the wall. damnit, watf is happening?! and umiral nanaman ung katamaran ko sa buhay. tv overload nako. i watch tv until 3 am, and wake up at around 9 am, tpos kuha remote, channel surfing galore hanggang sa may magandang panoodin. waaaaaaahh! last week, nagoverload na ung kuryente dito sa taas, so nawalan ng kuryente dito sa taas for one whole day. my dad was in san juan when it happened and could not go home until 8pm. so no choice, nagtv ako sa baba, na natanggal ung cable, at nabaliw ako. telenovela, cartoons na tgalog version, wowee, eatbulaga, news at teleserye marathon ang dating ko.  syeeeeeeeeeet. ayoko ng ganito!! namimiss ko ng mabaliw sa school. namimiss ko ng makulangan ng tulog kc i had to finish a paper or thesis galore sa ym. mantakin mo?! nagtthesis sa ym! syet. ngyon la na mapagusapan sa ym.. kc puro.. "syet, kelangan ko na magtrabaho.." ayoko na ng ganun!! gsto ko na un.. "kelan tyo boracay? may pera na tyo! wohooo!" haaaaaay.  I miss my friends...................... 2 | comment | save | edit

pressure [ 05.27.06 - 12:02am] [ mood | confused ] syet, even though i already signed the training agreement with accenture, nappressure pa din ako, BIG TIME. marge was telling me about how big her brother was earning, and it sumed up up to 6 figures. syet. and her brother would not accept a job if the salary would be below 50 thousand. syet. with accenture i am contented with P8600. haha. ano ba toh?! what am i supposed to do? nappressure talga ako. parng gsto ko nalang magaral ulit, at least i dont have to deal with these things. PERO cyempre, reality check, i really have to face this. crap.  with accenture, hindi ko pa gsto ung position. BPO-business process outsourcing. ano ito?! up to now i don't even know what i am supposed to do/be. naguguluhan ako. i had to take this job offer kc most of my classmates are already employed. and if i don't take this pa din, baka wala ng magjob offer ever. haay. argh. nakakinis. i want sped, but it takes a lot of effort to be in sped. pero thats what i really want. but i dont like the fact that i have to be in a school setting again. ano ba yan. ang gulogulo ko? i still do not know what i really want or what i really want to be. gusto ko lang magkapera. haha. gsto ko yumaman. gusto ko na bilin ung mga gsto kong bilhin. pagnagpapabili ako sa parents ko, especially my mom, pahirapan pa. ang dami pang sermon. if i ask money from her, she would always complain. waah? what am i to do, EH wALA naman na tlaga ako pera. as in zero. she would always tell me.. "magipon ka kc, gastos ka ng gastos." ano ggawin ko? hindi na nga ako humihingi ng extra money sa mga ibang expenses sa school, pero ganun pa din. hindi nya naiintindhan ung mga extra needs ko. lagi nya binabalik sakin. haay! this is why i want to get a high paying job. para never na ko hihingi and to prove to her na kaya ko. being the eldest is double pressure for me. cyempre, i have be the "good example" to my siblings.. gsto ko cla ung mappressure dahil napaka-successful ko and they want to be just like me. haha. ayoko the other way around. ego, pride, lhat lahat ko na yun. it will be so downgrading for me. and of course, gsto ko paimpress sa parents ko. although they both are still earning, i want to help pa din sa bills dito sa bahay. i want to be that good and matulungin daughter that they want me to be. ayoko maging palamunin at aasa nalang forever. pero pano?! how can i succeed with an 8k salary per month?! pag nagin regular ako minus 2k tax na.. magkano nalang matitira sakin?! pano mga goals ko sa buhay?! syet!! nappressure na talaga ako ng malupet!! and taena, pnagcchan ko na talaga na naging tamad ako nung nagaaral ako. if only i can turn back time (nax), nagbasa at nagaral sana ko ng mabuting mabuti. cneryoso ko sana ung mga english classes ko,and sana ngyon, excellent pa english compre ko. waaahh!! maybe its not yet too late pero ang hirap na cmulan! hahaha. ano ba yan. ang dami ko gsto gawin, but i dont know where to start.. where i sHOULD start.. parang everything that i want to do is important and can contribute a lot to me being successful one day.  syet what to do?! confused. pressured. overwhelemed=mixed emotions argh! 2 | comment | save | edit

boredom's eating my existence [ 05.25.06 - 2:57am] [ mood | bored ] syet, im soooo freaggin bored. boredom is eating me alive!! i don't know what to do anymore. its not that i do not know what to do with this situation but i ran out of things to do. argh and i really hate this! i thought bumming around was fun because you do not have to do anything related with school. but no! at least when i was still in school, i had to make most out of what i have for the summer.. but now that i have already graduated, i have to wait forever until i get a decent high paying job. in 2 week's time, i am an official BUM. pressure.  actually, i already have a job but will not start until july3! my gad, what will i do for another long month?! 2 months is now too long for me. i need to do something!! i want to go out but my parents won't give me money anymore! this really sucks. all i have in my wallet is a hundred peso bill and i still have one month before i can actually earn my own money. waaaaaaaaaahh!! this is too crazy for me. what to do?! tell me?! i need to do something and be productive with my life. i feel hopless. i miss school. and mehn, i miss studying and doing homeworks. im already missing my early fx rides to ust and my endless waiting for a ride home. i miss my school. i miss friends, classmates etc.. waaaahh!! what's happening?! boredom is eating me alive!! what to do?! comment | save | edit

realizations [ 05.18.06 - 1:54pm] [ mood | awake ] some things that i realized after graduation syempre, ang saya ng AT LAST TAPOS KA NA! no more thesis, no more rorschach, no more recitation sa etar no more paper works sa pgc. in short tapos na tapos ka na. ang saya mang-inggit ng tao. wahahaahaha. ang saya ng papunta-punta ka lang sa school, humhingi ka pa din pera kc sabi mo may tntapos pa kayo.. o dba may pera ka pa din. ang sarap mangik-back for the last time kaya tinodo ko na toh! nyahaha ang sarap ng feeling na hindi ko na hawak ang pax romana!! wohoooo!! ngayon ko lang nafeel na summer na talaga! ang sarap pala sa puerto galera kahit nadukot ung phone ko habang sumasayaw sa tugtog na.. "HAAAPPYYY.. IM FEELING SOOO HAPPPYEEEE" sa puerto galera pala ang daming bading. hindi mo na nga alam kung babae ba cya o bading after 1 month... KELANGAN KO NA PALA MAGISING SA REALITY NA KELNAGN KO NG MAGSIMULANG MAGHANAP NG TRABAHO! pero.. HINDI pa pala ready friends ko magwork, june pa. haha. kaya ayos! bakasyon ulit.. no pressure.. =D since tinatamad ka pa magapply at wala ka pang kasamang magjob hunt, negrely ka sa jobstreet hi-tech na pala pagapply sa trabaho ngayon.. pwede na online! pero matgal processing pag online ka nagapply. apply ka today. jusmeh sa june ka pa tatawagan some companies would prefer applicants who apply online. o dba pero lintik ang processing nyo! (IBM for short) apply ka sa mga akala mo magagandang company. nakapost sa jobstreet hr position, ttawagan ka for interview. ssbhin mo siyet yes sa wakas eto na talaga. tanong mo for what position, sasabhin sayo CUSTOMER SERVICE REPRESENTATIVE. ngek. joke time. isang katutak pala ang call center sa mundo! pag nagjobfair ka, half ng companies na andun call center.. iisipin mo na.. syet ano ba calling ko ba toh?! pero xempre hindi ka pa maggive up. june pa talaga. since may na at mejo nauuntog ka na sa realidad, nagstart ka ng gawin ung typical job hunt. walk-in. mas maganda pala pag walk-in ka kasi test agad then interview then job offer na tpos -tuturn down kagad kasi next day magsstart ka na. syet. hindi pa talaga ko ready. june talaga.... masaya palang magjob hunt sa ayala. ang lupet ng buildings! dapat mala-sky scrapers ang dating ng aaplyan mong companya. kahit hindi sikat, basta ung building mataas at maganda. maganda elevator, cr, reception area pati receptionist, mind you, minsan dapat spokening dollar pa ang guard. pag naka-business attire ka pala, yung tipong mukha kang CEO at papasok ka greenbelt, ang galang ng mga guard! hindi na ichcheck bag mo. o dba ang saya saya. wag ka lang makipagsabayan pag lunchtime kasi no choice chcheck talag nila bag kasi lahat kayo mukhang kagalang-galang. laging magkatabi jollibee at dulcinea sa makati.. bakit nga ba? pero bakit dito sa qc jollibee at greenwhch lagi. ano meron? sa paseo de roxas pala, pede mong makita ang KAHIT SINO... nyahaha may mall din pala sa paseo de roxas.. paseo mall. haha. astig. tpos pag dumaan ka sa likod. TOSH naman!  madami palang branch ang accenture malabo pala sa accenture sa accenture pala kahit hindi mo pinuntahan interview mo last week tatawagan ka pa din nila for an interview. sa accenture pala kahit nainterview ka na, pasado ka na, nakpagpamedical ka na, napass mo na medical slip mo, tatwagan ka pa din nila if interested pa din to pursue your application at isschedule ka for an interview the next day. o dba. sikat ka. hinhabol habol ka nila kahit pasado ka na. ang word pala na FRESH e is a slang term for "MAHANGIN" pag hr ka pala tpos nagiinterview ka, pede mo sabhin.. "I HAVE TO ASK YOU SOMETHNG BUT I FORGOT SO NEVERMIND" pwde pala PHONE INTERVIEW ALL THE WAY hanggang sa job offer through phone pa din! astig =D si wacky pala yumayaman na! si carlos ang fluent na magenglish! syet turuan mo ko! islang-islang ka na din? ung mga long a? aaaaSAp si marge pala june 15 pa gsto magstart. hahahah. asa ka =p ang IBM pala call center? nyahaha.  ang saya pala kasama magjob hunt sila mark gale at gerardo estrellas (nax. o yan matouch kayo ah) ang sarap pala mangarap ng magtayo ng sariling company (GMK Inc, nyaha) ang mahal pala sa chily's. syet.  ung first car pala sa mrt eh para sa mga babae, matatanda, bata at disabled. pano mga bading? after magjobhunt, movie na. haha. si jay-ar yumayaman na! sabi nga ni mark.. umikot na ang kapalaran ng tadhana. syet. LIBRE! ang hirap pala maghanap ng trabaho bakit ganun sa ibang bansa, gngamit nila kung ano man nakasanayan nilang language, bakit dito kelangan english?! hahaha.dapat love our own. pag bum ka pala ang dami mo narerealize. pag bum ka pala pati mga teleserye sa gabi pnapatulan mo na  nung nagaaral ka pa, lagi mo cnsabi, "syet never ako magccall center"... ngyon, "syet pag ito wala pa, magccall center na talaga ako. wala naman masama ah.. yayaman ka pa. maiimprove pa ng todo oral communication skills mo." o dba, after contract mo sa call center, apply ka hr. excellent pa rating mo sa communication skills. over qualified ka na ngyon. in your face sa mga hindi tumanggap sayo nabobolats na ko sa S-SYNDROME ni marge. =p pag-galing ka accenture, mataas na market value mo. kaya tara na sa accenture! ngyon, gasgas na sakin ung motto na "PAG PARA SAYO, SAYO TALAGA" ang dami palang SPED sa mundo ung pre-school ko pala dati.. "school for autistics" syet yan. autistic pala ako. okay lang. AT LEAST IM SPECIAL. NYAHAHA. dapat lagi ka may baon tsinelas kapag magjojob hunt ka pag bumili k pala ng meal plus peach mangoe pie, may libreng inquirer. haha. si gerardo pla is a happy-go-luck-person. nyaha si mark pala ang daling mainfluence mag turn down ng companya. nyahaha mataas pala pangarap ng 2 mokong na toh, nyahaha si bones pala nagvovoice lessons! ano ba yan. magpakita ka naman! si katch pala CUTE. haha. matagal na. si rita pala may clearbook na para sa mga resumes nya. hahaha si benny pala president ng sta.cruzan, ACHIEVE.  si marion and paz accenture na kaya kayo na bahala samin ni ria. hahaha hindi pala call center ang accenture at #1 outsourcing company sya dito sa pinas. addict na addict na ko sa kape! pag bum ka pala, wala kang gngawa. hahaha mahirap pala magmahal. amph, san nanggaling toh?! pag bum ka pala madami ka narerealize nakakapagod din pala magisip ng ganito.... hahaha.   comment | save | edit

[ 05.15.06 - 10:47pm] [ mood | happy ] this entry is dedicated to my dear friend keeme.. hahaha! thank you for helping me put up my live journal. hahaha. im really not into this things, so uber thanks! and i miss you a lot! haha. kayo 2 ni joyjoy =D so yun... what to write? hehe. im so excited to start this live journal thing. well, obviously, im not yet working, nor have found any job yet.. hahaha.(technically, magulo pa sa accenture hehe) in short dakilang BUM. so i guess this would be the BEsT place to project all my energy. hah, as if i have one.. hmm.. i miss my college friends! have not seen them for a while and will not be able to for a couple of months or so.. everyone's busy with their newly found work, or busy from finding one OR just pretending to be. haha. (hail sa mga bum) the only people that i really get in touch with is mark and ge. well because they are my job hunting buddies and that  i just realized that its really difficult to find a decent job when your with this two. haha. msyadong mapili sa work! haha.. well, cant blame them.. mark is an obsessive-compulsive wEIRD individual so he goes for companies that would satisfy he's being an obsessive-compulsive. as for ge, he prefers the more reputable BIG companies than the not-so-big companies where he was practically accepted the day he applied! haay.. but one common thing that we share and agree on is that the building should be big, tall, the-glassy-newyork-type. in short dapat sky-scrapers hehe..well,despite all the being-mapili attitude ng mga kasama ko.. im having fun. =D could not believe that looking for a job is this exciting and uubbeer fun!! 2 | comment | save | edit

new stuff.. [ 05.15.06 - 8:50pm] [ mood | accomplished ] i had to try this one.. hehehe. comment | save | edit

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